I haven’t been here most of the Summer. Some of that is because it’s been a busy year. So much to do outside! It was such a beautiful Summer, not necessarily great for being poolside, but the temperature was tremendous and just enough rain that nothing turned brown in July or August.
But the main reason I wasn’t here was because I felt like I had nothing to say. And everything I thought about saying had the potential for someone to take it out of context and feel bad. Unfortunately, I’m still just co-dependent enough that the thought of someone being distraught because of something I wrote can completely shut me down. So for the last few months I’ve been silent.
During the last few days, however, I’ve really felt as though it’s time to get back. I have ideas and aha moments almost daily, and not sharing them makes me feel anxious and depressed. Some I write in one of my journals (I have three or four), but often I want to just type . . . I can type so much faster than I can write.
OK . . . all that probably seemed like I was rattling on, but what it’s really done is given me a commitment to keep. It’s me publicly announcing (or as public as this gets since I really don’t have much of a readership), I’m going to start sharing here again on a regular basis. It’s also a warning I guess that some of what you read here might not be what you want to hear. You are allowed to click off this page . . . I won’t even know. That’s why I put it here and don’t send it to any of my mailing lists. I save this space for my more controversial thoughts. I guess what I’m really saying is . . .
I’m back . . .