I’ve had this blog for several years now and just used it sporadically when something hit me. I’m not sure that anyone ever really reads my thoughts. For some reason this week I’ve been wondering what would happen if I shared something every day (or almost every day). So during March, I’ll try to be on here at some point each day.
As I thought all day about what to write, I didn’t have a lot of good ideas. Most blogs that are popular share heartfelt inspiration or something really unique. I’m not even sure I have any of that. I know I love to write. I know that I learn something from Christ almost daily, and I know that I love to share those insights.
For instance, it wasn’t too long ago that I was inspired to begin praying like this:
Lord, I give you permission to send your angel army to surround my mind and only allow your word and your thoughts to enter.
Recently I would have amended that to say something like:
Lord, I ask that you would command your angels concerning me. Send them to surround my mind so that only your thoughts and your word can enter.
It feels like there’s just no way I can have something to share every day that people will want to read, but for this month I’m going to write anyway! I even cleared out all of my spam comments today so that if I start to get legit comments I can approve them.
Those who know me understand that I am pretty transparent. I’ve shared most parts of my life, even some that my great-grandmother would have preferred I’d kept hidden. Yet even with the level of honesty and transparency I’ve maintained over the last 15 years or so, there’s still a huge part of me that is very private. It’s really weird. Most know that I was pregnant before I was married and that Steve and I nearly split up after 4 years of marriage. It’s no secret that I lived by the rules instead of relationship for many years in my Christian journey. I share freely that I allow my pride to get in my way much too often and that fear of what others thought paralyzed me for years.
But for everything I freely share, there is at least one thing that I’d prefer no one know. Will that stuff show up here on this blog? I can’t really answer that question today. It’s hard for me to imagine that I might allow any of those private items to be revealed. However, most of the things I share freely now were once on my “private” list, and I’ve managed to get to the place where I can share those with you, so who knows.
That’s it for tonight. I’ll be back tomorrow! I hope you will too!